| rob's loss |
2005-08-06 - 7:45 P.M.
So Rob's grandfather died about 4 or 5 days ago. They had the wake for 2 days (yesterday and the day before yesterday) & the funeral was today. He's been talking to me about it a little bit, which is a shocker because Rob hardly ever talks about feelings or any of that shit. And I don't know what to do. I've never went through something like that & my first thought when in a situation of this sort is to hug or hold or something, ya know? I'm not the person that says something really meaningful & heartfelt in moments like this. I'm just not that great with words.
So I keep wanting to hug him & hold him & do comforting my way. The only problem is that he's a thousand miles away. Yeah.. I think he still wants me to visit him. I say 'think' because he never gives me a direct answer, like he doesn't want to get his hopes up or anything. With me making $450/500 per check again though, I could possibly afford a short trip before the end of the year. Of course, that all depends on how things go between now & then so it's really uncertain. I'd still love to visit him though. He said earlier that both he & his family are doing pretty okay, considering the situation (duh). He also said there's been a couple of times that he's almost cried. But of course, that'd ruin his "bad ass" image. Haha. Eh, I'm stuck at work right now (on break & probably well past my 10 minute mark) when I'd much rather be anywhere else. Perhaps keeping Rob company in NJ when he's going through so much. It's a shame that I can't be there for him. I feel so useless. I'm just pointless words & failed efforts at comforting on a computer screen. |
