| confronting |
2004-10-13 - 10:22 a.m.
So everyone should know by now that I'm a huge wimp and try my best to avoid conflict. Well, I finally confronted something.
I told Jim that he and I should just be friends. I mentioned how he's never around anymore and how what he did with Tia still hurts me. And how I can't really trust him anymore but that I do still love him. It killed me to say all that to him last night but it was something that needed to be said. As far as I know, we're still going to remain friends though. I don't know. When I left last night, we were kinda in the middle of a conversation (well, he had said brb and then I split) and ended up parting on a bad note. That bad note being that I'm not sure he even sees me as a friend anymore. I'm not sure what else I can say about this. I cried almost constantly last night with Mark, a guy 800 miles away, as my only comfort. I'm still in the 'Holy hell, I need a hug' mood. I'm gonna go eat lunch with Ashley now and put on a fake smile. Hopefully I can be convincing enough that she doesn't ask any questions. |
