I envy them so much. She has what I want. She has what I'd kill to have.

I almost had that at one time. Well, assuming he was serious when he popped the question. I told him not right now though. Why? I don't know. I could be engaged right now. And planning my wedding and picking out dresses and asking people to be my Maid-of-Honor and such.

I don't guess it would have lasted anyway though. If it was meant to be, things wouldn't be the way they are now. He'd still be here. He'd still love me. I wouldn't be alone. :(

I seriously doubt I'm making much sense at the moment. So why am I still rambling? I dunno.

I'm listening to Coldplay right now. I really like them. *Nods* Which is surprising because they're just a bit more mellow than the Shadows Fall cd I had playing moments earlier. ;) I saw 'The Scientist' (uh, Coldplay, not Shadows Fall, if you don't know) on Fuse the other day. It's a very cool video. If you haven't saw it, you should definitely check it out.

I don't know what else to ramble about so I'm gonna end this. I'll probably ramble more later tonight though or tomorrow. *Shrug* I guess it depends on how I feel tonight.

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